you're always like this
ALWAYS~!

and then suddenly you go offline~
why eh?
irritz u noe??

and yes i can feel it.
truth is NOT being told.
fine.

you can know things but i can't?
fine..

you're just not the same person i once knew..
or maybe that wasn't even you at all..
maybe it was all just cover ups
lies after lies..
idk..
and i never will know..

cus i don't know when i will ever learnt to trust.

it's just so difficult to trust with all the different things going on at the same time right?
all the different information and stuff..
well..
beats me.


hurt me please..
just hurt me
make me hate you my whole life.
go on and hurt me like you'll never hurt another soul..
just go on and hurt me..
so that i'll hate and keep hating you
and will never bother you ever again.


what is trust?
to trust?
trusting?

what is believe?
believe in who?? what??

when will it end?
am i running with you?
or after you?
or am i running alone?

one-sided?
but hope.. there was a glimps of hope..

and in times like this
i just wana cut that string
pass it all back to you
and hit the stop button

and if i could
i'd erase all those times with you
if i could
i'd throw all the feelings far away
i'd burn them all into ashes and let them fly freely
if i could
i don't want to be this gurl who types all her feelings out
hoping to be heard
and hoping for something to change
but nothing works..
if i could
i don't wana fall for you

cus now
i'm not only tired
im exhausted
and i've lost all hopes..

if i really could.. i surely would