sometimes
no actually, most of the times..
i wonder why i choose to bother so much~

things will turn right back around
it will
just not now..
not anytime near
even if it wants to turn right back around right now
i won't allow it to

the faster it turns right back up
the faster it'll go back down

on another note
i have to seriously pluck up all the courage leaves off the courage tree
even if that means none would be left for awhile
it will grow anyway kan..?

not for today..
okay maybe i'll need it too today
but not as much

i'll need all the courage i can get to face dikir world again
i miss Endang and the stage and everything else
but i know that won't be enough for me to face it

May May May..
i've got about 3 months to pluck it all up..

i miss the stage