see..
i knew i'd know the truth some day
i knew i was right
and i knew i was the very fool
and i knew very well.. so very well..
you were very much confused..

but three months has past..
why am i still here..?

only one reason
cus i was; and still am
a fool who believed in you too much
and trusted you too deep

well..
nothing else can happen now
nothing worst~

what can i do?
i already told you to put my broken heart in an envlope and send it back to me right? =)

walking around + cold office + super cold bus ride home + having to stand = left knee in super pain..

been really long since my left knee acted up in pain..
damn.
my knee was never in pain tho SR was cold..
but now??
gosh~

not like SR is not cold
not like i didn't stand to work back in SR..
i did whaaat~
but why NOW then the knee act up..?
its irritating ya know!
tsk.


and thanx uh gurls.
comp lagi brape hari je oi!
maseh perangai ekh korang..
kaoz~
lau ni mcm jugak
puas hati jangan nak beranagan nak masok comp lagi uh
nak ni nak tu tapi tanak buat.. what the hell for??

fuck~
and i owe 2 working hours just so i can go for trainings.
bey korang perangai.
*rolls eyes*

serious uh
aku dah binget ngan korang
dengan perangai korang
so much for being decipline~!
mati uh
aku dah malas.
aku rase.. lau aku dah gian nah nak ber-dk lagik
aku panggel sesape yg nak join aku pi main nan team lain uh
tak leh tahan sak ni mcm
prangai..
so not the people i use to know.. pfft

I SUPER SADDED~!!
bcs when i lunch.. i eat alone
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and i always feel stupid when i eat alone
IM SERIOUS~!!

and seems like food at work sucks like to the max-est max~!
farQ!
and is expensive~!!
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i don't like
total waste of money!

a plate of nasi goreng (nasi kurang ey kak)
plus ikan and telo goreng cost me SIX FREAKING DOLLARS AND THIRTY CENTS~!!!
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and best of all..
i couldn't finish it
cus it taste ugly..
all three days lunching cus i didn;t lunch on wed
i couldn't finish my food

first day ate fun choy.. didn't finish -___-"
second day, ate nasi ayam.. didn't finish also
today eat nasi camur.. ALSO COULDN'T FINISH~!
pfft~!
waste money!

if my manager asks me again if i have regrets..
i'll say yes.
CUS LUNCH SUCK!
haha..
boleh gitu?

and..
is it just me.. or is work life like this..
do all managers have unpredictable swing of moods..?
heh~

i'll do up my notes on sat..
im sleepy now..
training better make the 2 hours i owe worth it!
pft~!

OMG~!
i am as kering as i can possibly be.
okay.. not kering like kurus kering
like that would only happen in 10 years..
i guess..
or it won;t happen at all
haha

im kering as in super kering of CASH~!
gosh~
but.. Alhamdulillah..
i've got a secured job now..
only need to manage my money..
Insyallah i can manage it well
=)

ouh..
TODAY WAS FUN AS HELL~!!
okay wait..
hell aint suppose to be fun ey~
haha..
ouh well..
today was super super fun~!

cus it was day outz with Nasi Co.
haha..
that name was made by 6 people back in year one..
i wasn't exactly part of them..
but i turned out to be.
haha

well..
not all came..
only 4 of us today
naj me zari n hamdi.

it was crazy singing session at a budget karaoke place..
haha..
but it was still fun..
screaming our throats out..
hahaha..
gelek here and there
danced like it was a club
sing out throats out.
THROAT~! not heart!!
haha..
damn funny.
then we ate together at the foodcourt nearby

we tried to get zari to go home with us
but he couldnt leave his lovely "wife" at boonlay~
hahahaha

tried taking pics..
but failed.
so we asked a passer by to help~
i think zari's head too big la
haha

so while that huge head vroom his way home
the three of us waited for the bus
and hamdi was crazily giving us jokes and riddles to solve in the bus..
hahaha..

one very dumb dumbbb "riddle" he asked was..
"if i have two dollars.. you have two dollars and naj has two dollars..
where is the place that we should be living at?"
and the bumb asnwer is..
COMMON-WEALTH
-______-" right?
ahaha..

still waiting for the pics from our "abang" who wishes he is as young as us..
ahaha..
so "abg" zari.. please upload the pics fast ya~



ouh ya..
here is the pic i wanted all of you to see..
my special pass to the movies..


nyts all~
=))

Ibu really wanted to catch a movie
i thought of going for Evolusi KL Drift
but no morning shows..
so we watched How to Train Your Dragon instead..

of cus watching a movie with your mum ain't as fun as catching it with your friends..
cus one thing for sure.. i like to talk alot..
and when i talk to Ibu in the cinema.. she doesn't get me.
-___-"
haha
anyway..
teh movie was great
teaches you to trust~
it makes you go.. "awwww"

movie was at 1.20pm
so we went to shop for my new work wear..

Ibu was like
this is nice..
that is nice..
you should wear this..
you should get that..
and all she was looking at was the size..
and i was like
*pull out price tag, shriek;"ibuuu~ mahal nye. tak ya la"*

i mean like seriously..
not like as if i have to wear formal like super formal office wear..
just have to be presentable and smart..

so i got 2 tops and a dress
Ibu got a similar dress.. only of a different colour. =)

i was like feeling2 la shopping..
fun dok!
i wonder how will it be if i have like millions of dollars..
go shop till i drop!!
haha

ouh.. i'll show you peeps my very special movie ticket..
i bet 90% of you never had such entry passes before!
next post la kay.
im too lazy to get the cam and load the pic.
heh~

im very thankful of Ibu..
times like this..
i really wonder how in the whole wide world would i ever repay her kindness..

seriously
how do you or would you repay your mum's kindness..
everything that she had and will always do for you..?


well..
jari ku sudah bengkak..
SLA preview was short and simple.
and my finger is swollen. =\
please please jangan koyak please..
omg~
sedaaaap jek pukol rotan..
tapi belom season.. ni la jadik nye.
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i need to get the rotan pukol-ing technique correct.
like "abg ayril" said..
kau gi pukol pakai tu buat pe..
pakai la ni..
bunyik pon lagi sedap..

haha.
yea~
i noe..
aku selenge..
but still..
it feels nice to me to pukol like tt..
tho the sound tak best
hahahaha

ok off to sleep beybehs~
muacks muacks~

http://atyekqah.tumblr.com/post/521423954/cus-all-answers-are-in-the-heart

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well mannered boys always make you melt somehow..

money and motorcycle are not everything to win a girl's heart ya know!
of cus its something
but NOT EVERYthing~

ouh yes.
im suppose to sleep

to training or to not training..?
hmm..

haha.. yes. i felt more of a dumdum today~
but ouh well..
ain't that atie to start with?

and yeah bebeh..
the name Nurul is so gona stick for work..

ouh well..
i was super afraid of what to text the manager early in the morning
my concern was seriously commitment..
that was the only only concern in mind.
but im super glad the manager actually understand my dream =))))
and was willing to make things work; give and take situation. =)

and why did i feel like a dumdum you ask..
cus its true what the manager said
he was shocked to see my text mxg saying that i agree to take up the job offer..
when i have yet to confirm what my job scope is

so how much dumb-er can lil miss atie get?
we'll find out la yer..
hehe

ouh ya!
i was dumb enuf to go meet the manager wearing my skinies and a basic tee..
HAHA. jeans ekh. tak betol pey budak.

jobs in hospitals may not be related to science.
and this.. is so far off from what i learn in school
yet im still going for it
cus i dun wan the mother to start nagging
heh.

kay.. i feel sleepy enough.
byee friends of the dumdummm

things i have to consider
#1 will it be seriously just a temp job?
#2 am i seriously up for it?
#3 will pay-work load ratio be fine?
#4 am i capable of coping?
damn. i don't wana struggle coping on TWO things..

idk~
there seems to be so many things i have to consider

which is more important to me right now?
my dreams of being committed to the arts
or work??

will ayah be a serious pain in the ass nagger
who will nag about the shift work??

i seriously have to think
and kak N is like not in the mood to talk
that's helping~
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gosh
i think i need to sit under the shower head and think real deep..
i don't want to struggle
i definitely wana try something
i do wana look to to challenges..
BUT.. i seriously don't want to struggle..

comp is just around the corner..
i still gta think..
what if we get to the finals..
i need to commit
my tempo is seriously beginner's level
and im playing with an expert level rebanist..

and even if we don't get to the finals..
we have another upcoming competition
which only students from the school and the recent alumni batch can participate..

i need to weigh my commitments..
i don't know~!!!!!!!!

where are my sister/advisor figures when i need them??
gosh..
never have i been placed in such situations..
i feel super lost!!!!

help?

so many-many-maaaaaaany things
actually not
but so many-many-maaaaaaaany feelings

*chants; its gna end its gna end its gna end..
its seriously gna end
soon soon soon very soon
its gna end its gna end its gna end...*

so~
i was bored
and i really wonder
when was the last time i held the camera and cam-whore-d
and so i did~



and NO right..?
my hair ain't the lion it was
i just wish it'd b this straight alllllll the while
and stop being bitchy and just stay there
don't fly off place

and see any difference?
ouh well..

GROW HAIR GROW!
im gna do something to youuuuuuu soon~
pritty soon..

been saying the same thing since sec 4 when i enter the kedai gunting rambut
"uh.. thinning, layer.. and V.. shoulder length. TY"

boring nyer aku ni~
ouh well..

two very much important dates coming up
#1: NINTH MAY TWENTY-TEN
mega dok..
and i still haven't gotten my tempo right. =\
cry with me bebeh.
eww.. mcm bdk kecik. nages2

#2: ELEVENTH MAY TWENTY-TEN
GRADUATION CEREMONY~!!
woot woot!!
i'll be wearing this



but not before i humban it into the washing machine
its so super stiff
i'll walk like a robot in it.
haha

SO LONG SUCKERS OF RP!
so what if i graduated wif 2.21?
im still OUT!
muaaahahahahaa!

*very evil la kan? heh. i noe.*

ciggs
lead to alcohol
*pukes*
leads to tabs
leads to chaos

and guess what
i hate them all

and i was "stuck" cus of Art & El on Suria
enjoy~

*sings*;"hit me baby one more timeeee"

been feeling very very super sleepy these days..
much easier for me to fall a sleep.
its gud. its guuuuuuud.

budden again.
im still ouh-so-sleeeeeeepyyyy
even times like this..
in the noon
gosh i just wana get back to bed~!

can i just sleep my days away?
i still feel super lazzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzy~
pleasE?

im over wanting you

we are just..
member tangge.. ryt?
hahahahaha

yummieh~
im slurping down my fav cup of drink..
TEA!

and no
this time i ain't drinking my all time must have Chrysanthemum tea
but my home made mint tea
=))

well
Ibu is cooking Briani rice for Ustaz at the Masjid
so i asked for some mint leaves and made my cup of tea
yummieeeeeeeeeee~!! =))

i think Jay is the biggest influence to my 2nd fav tea~ =)
hehe~

yummie mint tea~
it makes my throat full of ulcers feel much much better right now
i LOOOOVE it
=))

byee sumer
*happily slurping her mint tea*

gosh
this sickness is even worst than the time when i was down with H1N1~!!

at least that point of time
i was just weak
I COULD STILL EAT
only that i don't have the mood to
i had diarrhoea
but so what? i'd rather go to the toilet every 5 minutes than to be hungry all day long!

and ouh
i hate being sick
cus when im sick
i get all whinny
and all kiddish
crying and whining and a lil bossy

it just suck
i feel like an 8 year old
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and another reason why i hate being sick right now
cus my fever was like 38.4
and since H1N1
when ever fever hits more den 38
my head just go crazy when it has subside

it keeps spinning and gets super heavy
it just suck!

PLUS
with the diagnosed-as-swollen-throat
cus i think that it's ulcer
I CAN'T EAT PROPERLY DOH~!

and i cried my afternoon away just because ibu wasn't home and i was super hungry
on other hungry days
i'd cook some rice and fry some eggs
BUT I COULDN'T SWALLOW PROPERLY~!
and i don't know how to make myself a pot of porridge
-_-"

and i only stop crying when i puked out my medication.
=\
suck ey?

and im whining now
cus my throat hurts like crazy =\\

wahlau~
im so sick!
it has been really long since i feel this sick
=\\

really
been sleeping and crying the whole day
been complaining of super coldness..
after medication and sleep.. i'll be perspiring like mad~!

it so super cold my little fingers have gone numb.
its just so super cold.
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