yes yes~!
omg~!!
the long awaited day is tomorrow~!
i panicked just now during training
before we did the last set, Nafis told me to not look stress concentrating on the beats
instead he asked me to look up straight and smile
don't let the judges, neither the audiences see my stressed face

and when we were about to start our last set of training
i panicked
my heart raced like it never did before
and i was almost in tears
im serious~!
it hit me then
the day im waiting for is finally coming
the dream i've been waiting for and wanting so much is finally coming true

my eyes were flooding
my heart raced
my faced showed it
i felt my mouth trying its best to curve into a smile
but failed
i kept looking down
then up to the ceiling
and down again
tears almost rolled down my cheeks
i was so terrified about what might happen on the grand stage tomorrow
but still kipping my tempo and beats in mind

the plaster on my finger gave way
and it hurt hitting the anak rebana
but i continued
im not to stop at all

finally the set came to an end
i was so relieved
i checked my finger
it's still safe
no blisters
no cuts
no blood
thank god.

we did what we always do to gain our confidence
gather in a circle
but this time was a lil different
i cried my eyes out.. the moment mak esah said those very words;
"gurls, tmr is the day"
she made us say out the reasons why we are going up on stage tmr
everyone said their thoughts
wanting to make Endang proud
wanting to prove to people that we can do it
i said my piece; wanting to achieve my dream of playing the anak rebana on stage
and lastly
the thing that made me tear even more was when she said;
"im doing this because i love all of you"

wasn't the very touching?
other than Izyan, Mak Esah is the one who had been with Endang thru out the whole journey
she had been in all the competitions that Endang took part in
and seriously
i am proud of her =)

after her say
we did what we do best
put our hearts together and sing out our "encouragement" line
'Selembut Sutra
Kekata Ninda
Lemah Gemalai
Endang Bersuara..'
i couldn't bring myself to it
i could only shut my eyes tight
cover my mouth
and cried my heart out

and here i am tearing up again
cus tomorrow is really coming
in less than 24 hours, i'd be up on stage doing what i've dream of doing
i don't care if noone is gona be proud of me for doing it

actually i do care.
i wana prove to someone i can do what he wanted me to
but it doesn't matter now.

tomorrow is gona be a huge day for me
just a short 11 minutes will make a difference
and im terrified of the out come
im worried of my mistakes which might happen



all the best to the rest who are taking part..

and to Endang
MUAXX~!!
tnx for the opportunity~!