maybe they don't know
maybe they don't understand..
or maybe i just feel the way im feeling because i've never experience such things to over come the hugest obstacle in this phase of my life..

maybe they just don't understand the situation..
but then again..
who would..?
unless he/she goes tru it.. ryt?

i am not obsessive of the ex
it just so happen i dream about him
and idk why, i woke up crying

well then i reasoned to myself, maybe i still miss him..?
but that is the dumbest thing ever~
shouldn't i be missing the personssss after him instead?
shouldn't i be missing the one who suddenly left for another..?

budden again..
his "leaving" was much dramatic..
*what a word to use*

without reason
over FACEBOOK~
*i suddenly saw i wasn't in a r/s -___-
no calls, just a "simple" txt mxg
if i remember correctly, it was "don't call me anymore" and some continuation about break up.

well there are things which we definitely cannot control~
and feelings are one of them..
*are ke is..? wah dah karatzzzz sak~*

maybe i should conduct a survey on how long gurls take to get over their first real r/s.. and that being their seriously first r/s..
get some stats and make people shut.

im not trying to be evil or anything
it just pains the heart that ppl tell u things you cannot deny, yet at the same time cannot do a fkin thing to change..
and they dont understand exactly what you are feeling..

its like a feeling of wanting to do A but the fkin world wants and needs and forces you to the freaking B..

if ppl tink it dsn't feel stupid and bleeds the wound yet again..
just to wake up after 2 years and start crying again..
then they are wrong..

it's like loosing someone in a car accident, and everyone needs you to get over it..
when everyone, including yourself sees that u have, but suddenly every single thing re-lives again..

it totally ass-you-see-kay