things i have to consider
#1 will it be seriously just a temp job?
#2 am i seriously up for it?
#3 will pay-work load ratio be fine?
#4 am i capable of coping?
damn. i don't wana struggle coping on TWO things..

idk~
there seems to be so many things i have to consider

which is more important to me right now?
my dreams of being committed to the arts
or work??

will ayah be a serious pain in the ass nagger
who will nag about the shift work??

i seriously have to think
and kak N is like not in the mood to talk
that's helping~
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gosh
i think i need to sit under the shower head and think real deep..
i don't want to struggle
i definitely wana try something
i do wana look to to challenges..
BUT.. i seriously don't want to struggle..

comp is just around the corner..
i still gta think..
what if we get to the finals..
i need to commit
my tempo is seriously beginner's level
and im playing with an expert level rebanist..

and even if we don't get to the finals..
we have another upcoming competition
which only students from the school and the recent alumni batch can participate..

i need to weigh my commitments..
i don't know~!!!!!!!!

where are my sister/advisor figures when i need them??
gosh..
never have i been placed in such situations..
i feel super lost!!!!

help?