please pardon the language
i understand better with my own broken & mixed language

funny how this feels like a break up
sebab.. we are just two different people
who are just confused of each other punye presence
kan..?

but this feels somehow worst
cus
i had my classmates and super close Endang gurls when i first broke up
and i had my FYP teammates
my GFs
and Syafik wen i broke up with that same stupid guy


yesternight i felt lost
i really felt super lost
for once i was alone
crying my eyes out
just wanting to scream out loud

my hingos were just getting worst
campo nan air mate..
hamek kau.. makin menjadi-jadi uh

i woke up with kerak2 from the airmate
and the hingos like all over my face..
but who cares?
i didn't even looked at myself in the mirror
what more,
i didn't wash my face before i slept
i bet the black lines i saw on my hands were eyeliner marks

and i think i bleed
cus i saw brown marks on my bedsheet
but who cares?
i do my own laundry~

i woke up and cried again
nagis2 dah macam budak giler
bobual sendiri
hentak2 tangan pat katel baru yang tilam nye masih keras nih
tumbuk2 bantal2 atas katil ni
campak2 bantal pat cupboard

naseb ibu tak masok
lucky she never mengamok and scream at me
that would have been worst..

and with a state like this
i'm proud to say at home
and not go out

but aku buat keje giler la
tak de orang pat rumah
nak gamble isap rokok pat tange
kol2 ibu tak angakt~
check2 dier balek, mangkok aku.
jadi aku buat la keje giler pat dapo
gi asap pat tingkap dapo
tapi ni keje bodoh maximum-est uh~
haha. so dumb.

i actually forgot that the nenek kaypo punye tingkap bilik n tingkap dapo are actually facing my tingkap dapo
so anytime dier boleh nampak
aku tunggu ape..
mati kan la rokok..
ingat nak asap lagi pat lua..
pk2 balek..
uh buang suda rokok tu
dah bau nye kuat..
mangkok aku lau kene tangkap..

so yah
the whole day aku kopet
atas katel dengan laptop
nages ketawe suke ria~
ketawe kan Nas pat telipon!
haha. part ni klaka! hahaha~
ey
tapi sayer mandi okay..

yang paling tak perlu nye bende yang jadi nari
MSN
i don't need that same three words from you
esp in caps ekh~ *rollseyes*
yes you MrN.
dah pandai simpan mxg hist kan?
pi bukak uh.. check.
tak paham jugak. your problem kay =)

ouh
was hungry
so i ate the semalam punye kepale ikan masak curry~
bluek.
but i just finish eating another half of the head~
hehe

ouh.
i was fb-ing and tagged-ing the whole day~

but..
its not worth it la.
tagged nye budak2..
haizz..

tapi my 2 GF found their other half on tagged la kan?

*rollseyes*
ader la org baru onlyn..
should change my settings..

anyway..
i dunoe what else to do now.
i'm sick of tagged.
boring.

what with the mat reps
and the kelings adding me up
the people from tak tau country maner tah adding me up
and the old people~
ee..
im only 19 ekh.
people like 27 are like adding me up.
*pukes*
haha
aku lebih rela dgn kau sak nas~ haha
eh padehal ex aku 6 thn beza ekh..
hahaha

uh pape la

but moving on too fast is a killer
nak chill2 lek2..

im definitely picking myself up
and that is guuuuud

still have questions left unanswered
but if it's still unanswered after the weekend..
then..
just leave it as that


i need GFs who are single and can mingle~
then can go out and lepak~
have fun!
lau members due nih da sangkut
susa sikit ler..
hehee~

but yea~
i'm still smiling..
still laughing

cam members cakap smalam
"ekh? kau ni atie ke bukan ni?
woi. atie. ketawe nan senyum ader beza tau.
kau senyap cam ni.. senyum jek tak klua suare..
seram pulak aku"

hahaha!!

kecoh dok.
member sorang bubble smalam
klua nan member lain.
bubble lagi lor.
tipu lagi laa~
penat uh

sakit ni macam pon nak buat orang sakit hati.
piiih!

and im getting sick-er by the minute. =\
hidung sombat tak cukop tau.
telinge pon nak sombat jugak
bey batok2 lagik~
hoii~
memang nak buang duit aku betol la pi belik ubat.
waste money!

and you reading with your Mac stuff
what ever la.
mac book ker
itouch ke
iphone ke..
suke per bace2 org nyer blog~
and you're not using singtel's wireless or broadband.
i noe la.
you think i stupid ekh?
dah la.
bace2 confirm suke kan bace blog aku ni
bey ketawe2
meh meh.. let me laugh with you
muaaaahahahaha
dah?
ok. tag la walau iyer pon..
mari la erat kan silaturahim ni~
ok dah

OUH!
i have yet to jemur my kain la.
tido nak masuk pukul 5 pagi
bangun pukul 10.
aku ingat part bangun tu.
aku dengar suare Fiza O
mandi nyer pukul 2 lebih
haha.
terok2

best.
sesaper nak ajak atie klua besok?
blh uh.
mendak uh pat ruma ni~
boring mangkok!

ok dah.
tu je.
panjang berjela kan?
haaa.. hamek kau!
hehe

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