interview(S) was okay la
ler stakat~
just ask basic things
what positions i looking for
what type of shifts.. 5.5 days or rotating shifts possible
when i can start
blah blah~

cek~

watched movie for free..
and the heart beat super fast screaming his name
-__-"
seriously heart.. you can stop it already
you're no longer in his hands and won't be anymore kay~
he handed you over to me already
so stop wanting to run back to him
ape la best nyer tgn orang compared to rumah kau yang sedia ader nih??
tak serik jatoh dri tgn dier ekh?
haiyoo~
stop it la please favour.

ouh
tmr gona b Endang's outing
so before i head to meet them all
going back to SR take some thing~
then gooo
*pray somethings*

kay dah
nothing else.
no other offer on jobscentral
gona sleep for now~

Labels: life, MrN, work

omg omg omggggg~!
aku terase amat kental dang dengz~

kay wait now i need to go search how to go to these places

kay.
fyi
i got 2 go for 2 interviews today
i just hope more interview come la
and finish it today
aku pening ni!!!

kay one at suntec tower one
the other at ngee ann city tower a
3pm n 415pm

KAOZ~

i scarded~
hahaha

kk go find where

gaaah
i scared tak sempat seyy..
omggggg

now ibu is home
she biseng2 bcs i nvr jemo d kain
-______-"
u cuci u jemo lorrr~
tsk~

OMG FAR!!
okay la not that far
but stil far!!!!!
gosh
i hope can still make it~
=))

kay now go jemo kain
print a copy of my CV
prepare the things
go find baju
OMG I DUN HAVE KASUT!!!!!
whatever. js pakai d koyak one.
can bring slipa la

BUT GO ALONE??
omg!!!

kay tak pe..
its cool~

KAY BYE

Labels: life, work

omg!
i am so nervous!
hahaha

yes aku giler
why?
korang cam tak kenal atie jek..

i need help
anyone with scanner?
i need to scan my picture
to put in my CV

or someone snap a nice decent picture of me please =)

and i wana scan my results
so can put in also..

all done
only that my CV is not exactly done-ded yet
last drwn salary kosong
no result slip.

but..
just hantam lah
InsyaAllah can =)
AMIN!

please pray with me~
need it man~ gosh..

Labels: life, work

yes im so confused!
but not due to the heart matter~

Ayah wants me to continue studies
Ibu suggest that I be a temporary teacher
Fizul told me to just try applying for Universities
Aisyah told me she already applied for jobs online and is just waiting for calls for interview..

waduh~
susah deh~

IBUUU~!
just match make me with some rich man's son
marry us and make him pay all the expenses~
haiyaa
ain't it easier?
don't need to work~
just stay at home and take care of the kids

haha~
uh yer la..
malam2 mimpi orang yang tak perlu
lagi nak pi kawen?
tsk tsk..
atieeee atie~
haha


ouh ouhh~
i still cannot believe that i am telling people i am turning 20~!
and i am waiting for my cert from Polytechnic..
and that I'll be a diploma holder soon
AND THAT I AM ALREADY AN ADULT!!

omg!!

im still trying to finish up my CV
gosh..
my CV looks ugly~

i dunoe if i shud state that i have graduated..
or not.
haha

uh apape la.

ibu still wants me to go ask Teacher Tina about the MOE thing
so i guess i'll finish up this CV of mine..
then go ask cher tina abt it~

and ouh.
if you guys dunoe what CV is..
its resume kay~
hehe

i want to makan!
and ouh, today is a good day
why?
because i woke up much earlier than other days
and i mandi right after i wake up
so today is not kopet day~
hahaha

Labels: life, random

i am just an ordinary girl
i laugh i cry i tell stupid jokes which are not funny
i have girlfriends who i can run to
i make people laugh and smile
i curse and swear
i love and i fall

i am just an ordinary girl
who just wants things every other girls wants

i don't ask for fairytales
or magic dust
or wishes on the stars to come true

i ask for happiness
love and care

i am just an ordinary girl
who laughs and cry of her own stupid mistakes
and hopes that someone will walk right up to her to offer help and sort those mistakes out

i am just an ordinary girl
who ponders over a broken hope
knowing that it might be a good thing which had happen
but also feeling the hurt
looking out for things to help heal herself
asking and questioning along the way

i am just an ordinary girl
who gets hurt by lies and untold truths
and broken trust and hopes

i am just an ordinary girl
who needs her girlfriends

i am just an ordinary girl
who is trying her best to let things go
pick herself up
and show the world that she can

i am just an ordinary girl
who hates the world for not being of a help
who hates the laughter of those looking at her dreadful condition

i am just an ordinary girl
so please
don't laugh at me
don't jeer me
for falling out of love
and not being able to stand right back up in an instant

try being an ordinary girl for once
and know how we feel
to fall and not be able to stand for a moment

cus times like this
staying low on the ground and crying, reminiscing of the past
diluting the blood with our tears..
is a better feeling
than trying to stand, only to fall and make the cuts deeper

i am nothing
but ordinary..

Labels: life

no doubt im still confused to be angry or to just be happy..

at some points of time
i just wana look back and smile
but some times
i just wana slap the truth out from you..

tapi sejahat atie pon
tak de la betol2 sepak terajang orang kan?
lain la lau aku dah jadi 100% minah rep
not like i am..
*rollseyes*

but seriously
some times i just smile to thyink of everything that had happen
which is good
=)
but others
i just think of what happened
what had been said and done
and just wana scream and question why things don't happen
the things which were said to hasppen
not the ones i want to happen kay
jgn salah anggap =)

then again
i'm forcing myself at sometimes looking at things in a positive way
that it all happen with a reason
and that everything is just a blessing in disguise

so can i apologise and thank you again? =)

if you people think that i am an obsessive biatch
who cannot get over something so simple as this
i am not
it's not easy getting over someone you love okay
or in this case.. loved

get yourself stuck in this position
and see how you fair~

for wounds like this
medicines, medicated oils and plasters won't help.
only time would.
and kacau-ing people on tagged! haha~

im definitely emo-ing for a while
haha
biler mase aku tak emo pon?
heehehe~
but that doesn't mean i aint moving on or picking myself right back up
it's just part of moving on..

on another note
i still feel sick
but i need to let loose
gona meet nas n fiq later~!
woots
karaoke-ing with my sengau voice.
hehe..

im still joking n smiling n laughing like atie always does
so no worries
i am perfetly fine in my own way~ =)

Labels: life, MrN

please pardon the language
i understand better with my own broken & mixed language

funny how this feels like a break up
sebab.. we are just two different people
who are just confused of each other punye presence
kan..?

but this feels somehow worst
cus
i had my classmates and super close Endang gurls when i first broke up
and i had my FYP teammates
my GFs
and Syafik wen i broke up with that same stupid guy


yesternight i felt lost
i really felt super lost
for once i was alone
crying my eyes out
just wanting to scream out loud

my hingos were just getting worst
campo nan air mate..
hamek kau.. makin menjadi-jadi uh

i woke up with kerak2 from the airmate
and the hingos like all over my face..
but who cares?
i didn't even looked at myself in the mirror
what more,
i didn't wash my face before i slept
i bet the black lines i saw on my hands were eyeliner marks

and i think i bleed
cus i saw brown marks on my bedsheet
but who cares?
i do my own laundry~

i woke up and cried again
nagis2 dah macam budak giler
bobual sendiri
hentak2 tangan pat katel baru yang tilam nye masih keras nih
tumbuk2 bantal2 atas katil ni
campak2 bantal pat cupboard

naseb ibu tak masok
lucky she never mengamok and scream at me
that would have been worst..

and with a state like this
i'm proud to say at home
and not go out

but aku buat keje giler la
tak de orang pat rumah
nak gamble isap rokok pat tange
kol2 ibu tak angakt~
check2 dier balek, mangkok aku.
jadi aku buat la keje giler pat dapo
gi asap pat tingkap dapo
tapi ni keje bodoh maximum-est uh~
haha. so dumb.

i actually forgot that the nenek kaypo punye tingkap bilik n tingkap dapo are actually facing my tingkap dapo
so anytime dier boleh nampak
aku tunggu ape..
mati kan la rokok..
ingat nak asap lagi pat lua..
pk2 balek..
uh buang suda rokok tu
dah bau nye kuat..
mangkok aku lau kene tangkap..

so yah
the whole day aku kopet
atas katel dengan laptop
nages ketawe suke ria~
ketawe kan Nas pat telipon!
haha. part ni klaka! hahaha~
ey
tapi sayer mandi okay..

yang paling tak perlu nye bende yang jadi nari
MSN
i don't need that same three words from you
esp in caps ekh~ *rollseyes*
yes you MrN.
dah pandai simpan mxg hist kan?
pi bukak uh.. check.
tak paham jugak. your problem kay =)

ouh
was hungry
so i ate the semalam punye kepale ikan masak curry~
bluek.
but i just finish eating another half of the head~
hehe

ouh.
i was fb-ing and tagged-ing the whole day~

but..
its not worth it la.
tagged nye budak2..
haizz..

tapi my 2 GF found their other half on tagged la kan?

*rollseyes*
ader la org baru onlyn..
should change my settings..

anyway..
i dunoe what else to do now.
i'm sick of tagged.
boring.

what with the mat reps
and the kelings adding me up
the people from tak tau country maner tah adding me up
and the old people~
ee..
im only 19 ekh.
people like 27 are like adding me up.
*pukes*
haha
aku lebih rela dgn kau sak nas~ haha
eh padehal ex aku 6 thn beza ekh..
hahaha

uh pape la

but moving on too fast is a killer
nak chill2 lek2..

im definitely picking myself up
and that is guuuuud

still have questions left unanswered
but if it's still unanswered after the weekend..
then..
just leave it as that


i need GFs who are single and can mingle~
then can go out and lepak~
have fun!
lau members due nih da sangkut
susa sikit ler..
hehee~

but yea~
i'm still smiling..
still laughing

cam members cakap smalam
"ekh? kau ni atie ke bukan ni?
woi. atie. ketawe nan senyum ader beza tau.
kau senyap cam ni.. senyum jek tak klua suare..
seram pulak aku"

hahaha!!

kecoh dok.
member sorang bubble smalam
klua nan member lain.
bubble lagi lor.
tipu lagi laa~
penat uh

sakit ni macam pon nak buat orang sakit hati.
piiih!

and im getting sick-er by the minute. =\
hidung sombat tak cukop tau.
telinge pon nak sombat jugak
bey batok2 lagik~
hoii~
memang nak buang duit aku betol la pi belik ubat.
waste money!

and you reading with your Mac stuff
what ever la.
mac book ker
itouch ke
iphone ke..
suke per bace2 org nyer blog~
and you're not using singtel's wireless or broadband.
i noe la.
you think i stupid ekh?
dah la.
bace2 confirm suke kan bace blog aku ni
bey ketawe2
meh meh.. let me laugh with you
muaaaahahahaha
dah?
ok. tag la walau iyer pon..
mari la erat kan silaturahim ni~
ok dah

OUH!
i have yet to jemur my kain la.
tido nak masuk pukul 5 pagi
bangun pukul 10.
aku ingat part bangun tu.
aku dengar suare Fiza O
mandi nyer pukul 2 lebih
haha.
terok2

best.
sesaper nak ajak atie klua besok?
blh uh.
mendak uh pat ruma ni~
boring mangkok!

ok dah.
tu je.
panjang berjela kan?
haaa.. hamek kau!
hehe

Labels: complains, life, MrN

bye world~
im gna miss everything
but yes.
i need to move on.
i'll start by getting a job.
can?
haizz...

ryt now..
im just so sad sad saded
*insert very very sad pouting face*

Labels: life